So, Yesterday was my 3yr wedding anniversary. Yes, 3 long years of wedded...bliss? Well they do say ignorance is bliss. We have probably dealt with more problems in those three years than most couples deal with in high school relationships and 20 yr marriages combined. But its cool. Neither of us really knew who the other was. Tho one of us was completely honest, the other didn't believe anyone would ever be that way..Stuff happens. I am glad that we stuck it out, and found ways to try to make it thru. And UBERglad those ways actually worked. I love my husband, with every fiber of my being, I truely hope that everyone can find this kind of relationship-it is Awesome. Hopefully Ill figure out how to post the slideshow I made him to this page :)
Christmas: So, santa will come. Granted, it will not nearly be what my kids are used to. And the simple fact that none of the presents under the tree are from "mom and dad" is pretty depressing. I have just explained that "our" christmas will be in a few days, and will be "uberawesome". Its important to me that my 5yr doesnt think Santa thinks any less of her. Her friends have more money and brag about what they get. Ugh this disguists me anyway, but I sure don't want my child to ever EVER thinking kids with more money are BETTER to santa and therefore get more and better things. She already has a "friend" like this. Its funny because tho normally I wouldnt condone it, since it is the truth, i can NOT correct her when she states "but mom, i really am cuter than brooklyn". Cuz,well, she really is. I also told her the next time the little girl says " i cant play with you cuz my mom doesnt like your mom", that Azlei can proudly say "No big, your mom is a total Meanie weinerton, and a dookiebubble" (these are her words so i really dont see a prob with it. lmao. Man I will be glad to get out of Fort Hood. And as far as a new unit YAY!...
I think this time, I will try from the beginning to be friendly, if people act the same way they did with this unit, squak on all of them. I get so tired of being nice to people-going OUT of my way to make them smile-just so they can be shitty to me. Fuck that.
Anyways
MERRY CHRISTMASS BLOGSPHERE!!!!!!! Hope its Wonderiffic ;)
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
attemped & FAILED fb page(Just wanna Vent)
So this was it..
http://www.facebook.com/pages/34-AVN-FRG/113905628674932
The BIGGEST failure of my life. Quite literally. But HEY, if a stupid fb page was the biggest failure of my life, I consider myself OH SO LUCKY! Kinda like this blog. I doubt people will read it. Even when I get past the "journaling" only stage, and post actually topics of things I care about. I attempted to connect with the spouses and family members of soldiers deployed with my husband. WHY?? because Im pretty antisocial. I dont like people. Im on prozac right now, it helps alot. Makes me wanna help people, makes me wanna help other peeps to be happy-wtf right? iknow! So anyways, I give it a try...Ugh, whateve ya know...These people...its like some peeps accept my f.r, I look at their page and Im saddened because I KNOW what is going on with their hubby overseas and there is NO reflection that they even give a shit on their page.. So maybe they dont want their biz on fb you say. Okay, I get that- but "had a blast partying all weekend" is a lil more than not wantn ur biz out there if ur hubby is having to go to counseling overseas...JUST SAAYING...
Repeatedly these guys have been totally dickheads to my husband. aight, whatever, he's a spc and they are "whatever they are i wont call them out". BUT you would think if they are THAT far up there, they would know just a LITTLE bit about manners and how to act...guess Im wrong, guess it just means they have the authority to be total douchebags and get away with it. Awesome. I sure hope my hubby is a *totaldouchebagRank* soon.
Ive always had a problem with people acting this way. I thing I "assumed" bwhaha (never in my life has the whole ass outta u and me made more since that the army) that in the army it would be different. I thought people would have Class. That they would want to represent the US Army and their Country the best way possible. BOY was I wrong. From married people cheating on spouse in basic and ait, to guys getting thru ait based on fam members being in the army even tho they shouldve "flunked, been discharged out", to actually NCO's having less common sense and respect than my self absorbed 12 yr old daughter, I am shocked AND appauled. You know u watch those movies where the military guys do such horrendous things to the people overseas and you want to believe its just a movie thing? Nah, they prob do that, AND worse. These guys take their "so called power" worse than police officers do.. I really hope ONE day someone knowcks them down a few pegs. I hate to say it, but did you ever tthink that why we dont do so good in Wars?? Karma is a total bitch..ANd these guys are racking up negative Karma pts like there is NO tomorrow..
http://www.facebook.com/pages/34-AVN-FRG/113905628674932
The BIGGEST failure of my life. Quite literally. But HEY, if a stupid fb page was the biggest failure of my life, I consider myself OH SO LUCKY! Kinda like this blog. I doubt people will read it. Even when I get past the "journaling" only stage, and post actually topics of things I care about. I attempted to connect with the spouses and family members of soldiers deployed with my husband. WHY?? because Im pretty antisocial. I dont like people. Im on prozac right now, it helps alot. Makes me wanna help people, makes me wanna help other peeps to be happy-wtf right? iknow! So anyways, I give it a try...Ugh, whateve ya know...These people...its like some peeps accept my f.r, I look at their page and Im saddened because I KNOW what is going on with their hubby overseas and there is NO reflection that they even give a shit on their page.. So maybe they dont want their biz on fb you say. Okay, I get that- but "had a blast partying all weekend" is a lil more than not wantn ur biz out there if ur hubby is having to go to counseling overseas...JUST SAAYING...
Repeatedly these guys have been totally dickheads to my husband. aight, whatever, he's a spc and they are "whatever they are i wont call them out". BUT you would think if they are THAT far up there, they would know just a LITTLE bit about manners and how to act...guess Im wrong, guess it just means they have the authority to be total douchebags and get away with it. Awesome. I sure hope my hubby is a *totaldouchebagRank* soon.
Ive always had a problem with people acting this way. I thing I "assumed" bwhaha (never in my life has the whole ass outta u and me made more since that the army) that in the army it would be different. I thought people would have Class. That they would want to represent the US Army and their Country the best way possible. BOY was I wrong. From married people cheating on spouse in basic and ait, to guys getting thru ait based on fam members being in the army even tho they shouldve "flunked, been discharged out", to actually NCO's having less common sense and respect than my self absorbed 12 yr old daughter, I am shocked AND appauled. You know u watch those movies where the military guys do such horrendous things to the people overseas and you want to believe its just a movie thing? Nah, they prob do that, AND worse. These guys take their "so called power" worse than police officers do.. I really hope ONE day someone knowcks them down a few pegs. I hate to say it, but did you ever tthink that why we dont do so good in Wars?? Karma is a total bitch..ANd these guys are racking up negative Karma pts like there is NO tomorrow..
Monday, December 20, 2010
Thanks :) to my 3 lil followers!
I realize the page isnt much. But hopefully it will eventually get interesting(like more than just "journal entries-tho those can be oh so fun ;p) I cant even figure out atm how to put a gadget to add links on here yet soo....
http://memoirsofmentalillness.webstarts.com/
This is a webpage where my son and I will be posting our poetry, good and bad, just various things we have written thru-out the years..Im actually trying to get him to get his own blog page, because his mind is AMAZING. Im still considering if I want my daughter to or not. She's kinda at the stage where she might post alot of things that she would go back to and think "OMFG WHY DID I LEAVE THAT FOR THE WHOLE WORLD" but it could also be a good thing. Who said everyone needs counselors, sometimes you just need to make journaling fun, and give peeps the options and reasons to reread it.
This blog page:: http://mysilentranks.blogspot.com/p/about-me.html is one i can NOT stress enough. NO, not because I won something, (also has a fb page:: http://www.facebook.com/pages/The-Rogue-Milspouse/121855254540214) but because if you actually read the things she has posted, the chic is hella cool. Not to mention the awesome hair..
Another woman I have found MUCH respect for over the past few months::
http://soldiersangel629.blogspot.com/ also http://www.facebook.com/#!/AWDIWH on fb, I believe she is co-mod on http://www.facebook.com/pages/Free-Speech-Debates/123797561013389. These are AWESOME pages. jamie and rissa(who i have NO clue if she has a blog-sorry) are extrememly intelligent, tell it like it is kinda of gals. I totally love reading their opinions and responses to other people. Ihave basically become massively addicted to fb and REALLY need a gadget to show the links to all the pages I LOVE!!! someone help~
http://memoirsofmentalillness.webstarts.com/
This is a webpage where my son and I will be posting our poetry, good and bad, just various things we have written thru-out the years..Im actually trying to get him to get his own blog page, because his mind is AMAZING. Im still considering if I want my daughter to or not. She's kinda at the stage where she might post alot of things that she would go back to and think "OMFG WHY DID I LEAVE THAT FOR THE WHOLE WORLD" but it could also be a good thing. Who said everyone needs counselors, sometimes you just need to make journaling fun, and give peeps the options and reasons to reread it.
This blog page:: http://mysilentranks.blogspot.com/p/about-me.html is one i can NOT stress enough. NO, not because I won something, (also has a fb page:: http://www.facebook.com/pages/The-Rogue-Milspouse/121855254540214) but because if you actually read the things she has posted, the chic is hella cool. Not to mention the awesome hair..
Another woman I have found MUCH respect for over the past few months::
http://soldiersangel629.blogspot.com/ also http://www.facebook.com/#!/AWDIWH on fb, I believe she is co-mod on http://www.facebook.com/pages/Free-Speech-Debates/123797561013389. These are AWESOME pages. jamie and rissa(who i have NO clue if she has a blog-sorry) are extrememly intelligent, tell it like it is kinda of gals. I totally love reading their opinions and responses to other people. Ihave basically become massively addicted to fb and REALLY need a gadget to show the links to all the pages I LOVE!!! someone help~
Um-the first poem i eve wrote, that I 'member.
aS i SIT HERE
ALL ALONE
iN A WORLD
ALL MY OWN NO ONE CAN GET IN
I CANT GET OUT
I TRY
TO NO AVAIL
TO SCREAM, TO SHOUT
SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME
OH WELL, NEVERMIND
GUESS IM JUST STUCK HERE
WITHIN MY OWN
WITHOUT MY MIND
©jamieyoung 1997
ALL ALONE
iN A WORLD
ALL MY OWN NO ONE CAN GET IN
I CANT GET OUT
I TRY
TO NO AVAIL
TO SCREAM, TO SHOUT
SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME
OH WELL, NEVERMIND
GUESS IM JUST STUCK HERE
WITHIN MY OWN
WITHOUT MY MIND
©jamieyoung 1997
Untitled by Josh Hargett
K, so here's a poem by my son...
How has my life come to this?
I am as plain and lifeless as the wall at which i constantly stare.
It's as if my brain is empty; my head filled with only air.
I long for something different, something wonderfully unique.
Only within the realms of your mind can I find this thing of which I speak.
Correction, I mean things, for there are many there to find.
There's creativity and expression in your opinionated mind.
Wonder and amazement fill me up with every word.
Your thoughts and your feelings are the best i've ever heard.
You may have a few problems and be quite fond of the knife
But all I know is that when you speak
Your words bring me to life.
So if one day you hurt and welcome death with open arms
Remember that i'm here for you.
To protect you from all harm
©Joshua Hargett 2010
How has my life come to this?
I am as plain and lifeless as the wall at which i constantly stare.
It's as if my brain is empty; my head filled with only air.
I long for something different, something wonderfully unique.
Only within the realms of your mind can I find this thing of which I speak.
Correction, I mean things, for there are many there to find.
There's creativity and expression in your opinionated mind.
Wonder and amazement fill me up with every word.
Your thoughts and your feelings are the best i've ever heard.
You may have a few problems and be quite fond of the knife
But all I know is that when you speak
Your words bring me to life.
So if one day you hurt and welcome death with open arms
Remember that i'm here for you.
To protect you from all harm
©Joshua Hargett 2010
More about me...
Since its mmmm about 230 in the morn, and Im OBVIOUSLY NOT going to sleep, I guess ill give you a lil more background or what-have-you. Maybe some 1/2 sentences or just whatever to give u the "jest" of my life??
K..and...GO...
Preggers at 17, married at 18, graduated high school, worked, back surgery at 18 for 4wheeler wreck at 13. Gave birth at 18(boy-Josh), Divorced at 19 or 20. (Back surgery in 96 after son's birth for herniated discs l4 & l5)Preg again at 20(diff guy) Gave birth at 21(girl-Kaleigh). Now living on my own. Working. Not a very good person (or parent I guess, tho they got everything they needed and were NEVER neglected or harmed). Years go on,Dad gets sick, find out he has terminal cancer. he dies 03. Had another back surgery(ruptured discs l5&s1)in 03 i think. 2004 get preggers wit youngest(not working). Give birth mar 05, start working, end up losing job because of tardiness(cant get there if no one is home to watch kids for me to leave..) move in wit J, kids stay wit my mom, totally sux. this is beginning of '07. get married end of '07, girls move in Js moms wit us, we move out pretty soon into apt, muvico shuts down...j joins army nov 08...basic, ait...we move to FoHo..he deploys and now we are pretty much current.
during this time we tried NUMEROUS times to get his boys, his bitchass exwife signed them over to her dad without ever consulting my husband. also the other son(that i mentioned before), we have tried numerous times to have contact with. the mother will not speak with either of us(especially me-i cant imagine why ;p), and my hubby has only spoken with the grandmother. it seems that the girls he choose to "procreate" with decided to give the products of their actions to their parents, despite the pleadings of the "father" of those "actions" to take them. Yes, we couldve hired a lawyer by now. Honestly, we have Not had the money. My hubby is in so much debt from the previous two bitches, Idk if we will ever get caught up. He did not let them be held accountable for ANYTHING during their relationships, so now it has all fallen on US. nice.
Anyways...prob one more "about me" should do it, and then youll get me..and then we shall just have fun!!...how about some poetry??
K..and...GO...
Preggers at 17, married at 18, graduated high school, worked, back surgery at 18 for 4wheeler wreck at 13. Gave birth at 18(boy-Josh), Divorced at 19 or 20. (Back surgery in 96 after son's birth for herniated discs l4 & l5)Preg again at 20(diff guy) Gave birth at 21(girl-Kaleigh). Now living on my own. Working. Not a very good person (or parent I guess, tho they got everything they needed and were NEVER neglected or harmed). Years go on,Dad gets sick, find out he has terminal cancer. he dies 03. Had another back surgery(ruptured discs l5&s1)in 03 i think. 2004 get preggers wit youngest(not working). Give birth mar 05, start working, end up losing job because of tardiness(cant get there if no one is home to watch kids for me to leave..) move in wit J, kids stay wit my mom, totally sux. this is beginning of '07. get married end of '07, girls move in Js moms wit us, we move out pretty soon into apt, muvico shuts down...j joins army nov 08...basic, ait...we move to FoHo..he deploys and now we are pretty much current.
during this time we tried NUMEROUS times to get his boys, his bitchass exwife signed them over to her dad without ever consulting my husband. also the other son(that i mentioned before), we have tried numerous times to have contact with. the mother will not speak with either of us(especially me-i cant imagine why ;p), and my hubby has only spoken with the grandmother. it seems that the girls he choose to "procreate" with decided to give the products of their actions to their parents, despite the pleadings of the "father" of those "actions" to take them. Yes, we couldve hired a lawyer by now. Honestly, we have Not had the money. My hubby is in so much debt from the previous two bitches, Idk if we will ever get caught up. He did not let them be held accountable for ANYTHING during their relationships, so now it has all fallen on US. nice.
Anyways...prob one more "about me" should do it, and then youll get me..and then we shall just have fun!!...how about some poetry??
WooHoo! The Rogue MilSpouse GiveAway!
http://mysilentranks.blogspot.com/2010/12/blog-winners.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+HalfMyHeartisDeployed+%28Half+My+Heart...is+Deployed%29
Yeah, I Totally won a giveaway...I will NOT pretend I am NOT extemely psyched.
Cuz I seriously AM. HELLO~its a giveaway!! Mmhmm, click that link up there, Im
not lying, Itll tell you. Jsnswfy, winner. Ok, granted, maybe Im still not as cool as the
chic who did the giveaway. But I did WIN something. Im stoked. Call me a geek, I don't care, this is totally boss, or beast, or bitchin, whatever. See Im one of those people who gets excited when they win anything, be it on a stratchy(won a $100 gift card to the px-that was pretty cool), or a blog giveaway or whatever. When its actually 100% free, it is like the coolest thing eva. I mean I read chica's blog, and its cool, and entertaining, I did what she asked, and the VOILA(i hate when peeps spell that wrong) I WON something. Granted I wouldve like the awesome ass apron but HEY, check out what I DID win, how freakin cool?? PLUS she was all like "add her cuz she's new"- chic is awesome-just sayin....
Aight, its 2am, I should be sleepin and Ive had 2 bottles of wine(ok 2 and 1/2 or 3/4 possibly idk) Enough that I should end the blog about winning a cupcake set ;p
TtyPeeps Soon Thanks for playing haha Laters!
Yeah, I Totally won a giveaway...I will NOT pretend I am NOT extemely psyched.
Cuz I seriously AM. HELLO~its a giveaway!! Mmhmm, click that link up there, Im
not lying, Itll tell you. Jsnswfy, winner. Ok, granted, maybe Im still not as cool as the
chic who did the giveaway. But I did WIN something. Im stoked. Call me a geek, I don't care, this is totally boss, or beast, or bitchin, whatever. See Im one of those people who gets excited when they win anything, be it on a stratchy(won a $100 gift card to the px-that was pretty cool), or a blog giveaway or whatever. When its actually 100% free, it is like the coolest thing eva. I mean I read chica's blog, and its cool, and entertaining, I did what she asked, and the VOILA(i hate when peeps spell that wrong) I WON something. Granted I wouldve like the awesome ass apron but HEY, check out what I DID win, how freakin cool?? PLUS she was all like "add her cuz she's new"- chic is awesome-just sayin....
Aight, its 2am, I should be sleepin and Ive had 2 bottles of wine(ok 2 and 1/2 or 3/4 possibly idk) Enough that I should end the blog about winning a cupcake set ;p
TtyPeeps Soon Thanks for playing haha Laters!
Sunday, December 19, 2010
About me
Aighty, here I go..
Im 33, on my 2nd marriage. Now to the most wonderful and sexy man EVA! ;p
We have (all together) 6 kiddos. Josh-15, Kaleigh(who wants her name Officially
changed to Kake)-12, Kain-7, Jayden-6, Azlei Jade-5, and Sebastian-5. Okay,
technically we(well I have NEVER) seen Sebastian since he was prob a yr old.
The 3 youngest boys "belong" to my hubby. The oldest two are mine, and we
"share" the lil girl hehe. He will be adopting "Kake" when he returns from deploy-
ment. She considers him her father anyway. But does consider all of her 1/2 bro's.
sis's, and steps to be hers. She's a great kiddo, despite the massive attitude, and
fact that she thinks she's 25. My kids are great, I consider myself really lucky cuz
they are FREAKIN AWESOME!
Oh-and I tend to jump around in subjects alot(hence the title of the blog ;p)
Let's go on to kids first:
Josh-Man,this is THE most amazing son I could ever ask for. He is super intelligent,
way cool, and really sweet & caring. Plus he thinks his mom is hella cool.
Kain & Jayden- They live back home with their maternal Gpa. We dont get to
see them alot and that really hurts. They are great kiddos. Their gpa is teaching them
to hunt, which I personally LOVE, since I grew up with both parents hunting when I
was young. Hopefully one day we will ALL be together.
Azlei Jade- Oh my! She is quite a handful. Diva extrodinaire. But she will get down
and wrestle with her Daddy while wearing her princess crown. lol. Anything her Daddy
likes, she likes..and I think her Kakers is her best friend.
Me and the hubby(J). So Im 33, he's 25. We have been together around 5yrs.
In 3 days we will celebrate our 3rd wedding anniversary! It def has NOT been
all roses. To be honest, Im quite surprised we are still together. Im glad we
decided to workhard and see if we could make it work. Otherwise, we would both be missing outon the greatest experience of our entire lives. However "cheesy" it sounds,
it makes me think the whole- you hafta break a few eggs to make an omelet or how-
ever it goes. Well lets just say this is THE PERFECT OMELET. but there was an
awful lot of shells to clean up.
Eh, enough of bio for now, more later, plus some actual interesting stuff. Backgroud
I believe is important so u can understand why I am the way I am.
Im 33, on my 2nd marriage. Now to the most wonderful and sexy man EVA! ;p
We have (all together) 6 kiddos. Josh-15, Kaleigh(who wants her name Officially
changed to Kake)-12, Kain-7, Jayden-6, Azlei Jade-5, and Sebastian-5. Okay,
technically we(well I have NEVER) seen Sebastian since he was prob a yr old.
The 3 youngest boys "belong" to my hubby. The oldest two are mine, and we
"share" the lil girl hehe. He will be adopting "Kake" when he returns from deploy-
ment. She considers him her father anyway. But does consider all of her 1/2 bro's.
sis's, and steps to be hers. She's a great kiddo, despite the massive attitude, and
fact that she thinks she's 25. My kids are great, I consider myself really lucky cuz
they are FREAKIN AWESOME!
Oh-and I tend to jump around in subjects alot(hence the title of the blog ;p)
Let's go on to kids first:
Josh-Man,this is THE most amazing son I could ever ask for. He is super intelligent,
way cool, and really sweet & caring. Plus he thinks his mom is hella cool.
Kain & Jayden- They live back home with their maternal Gpa. We dont get to
see them alot and that really hurts. They are great kiddos. Their gpa is teaching them
to hunt, which I personally LOVE, since I grew up with both parents hunting when I
was young. Hopefully one day we will ALL be together.
Azlei Jade- Oh my! She is quite a handful. Diva extrodinaire. But she will get down
and wrestle with her Daddy while wearing her princess crown. lol. Anything her Daddy
likes, she likes..and I think her Kakers is her best friend.
Me and the hubby(J). So Im 33, he's 25. We have been together around 5yrs.
In 3 days we will celebrate our 3rd wedding anniversary! It def has NOT been
all roses. To be honest, Im quite surprised we are still together. Im glad we
decided to workhard and see if we could make it work. Otherwise, we would both be missing outon the greatest experience of our entire lives. However "cheesy" it sounds,
it makes me think the whole- you hafta break a few eggs to make an omelet or how-
ever it goes. Well lets just say this is THE PERFECT OMELET. but there was an
awful lot of shells to clean up.
Eh, enough of bio for now, more later, plus some actual interesting stuff. Backgroud
I believe is important so u can understand why I am the way I am.
Friday, December 17, 2010
Grr
So- I planned on having this page all beautified and perfect and posted on with all the pages I love and links and everything...Well as you see, none of that has happened. So here is just a lil note to say ITS COMING! I promise. Hopefully it will Not be as boring as it seems its going to be. There will also be a link to a poem page by my son and I YaY poetry!!
Ill give you the lowdown on myself and the fam when I return. Merry Freakin Christmas ;p
XxoO
Ill give you the lowdown on myself and the fam when I return. Merry Freakin Christmas ;p
XxoO
Sunday, December 5, 2010
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